Acting out sexually almost cost me my marriage. It started out innocent while looking at the swimsuit edition of Sports Illustrated, but we all know that magazine is not about swimsuits. It’s about the objectification of women and lust. Once I was desensitized, it was an easy step to softcore and then to hardcore pornography. On the inside, I was an angry, lustful, objectifying jerk, but, on the outside, I was still the good, wholesome, choir boy. All the lies and anger finally overtook me, and my wife of twenty-seven years could not live with my disrespectful, angry, victim way of being and the liar that I had become. I was forced to make a choice that a lot of addicts must come to grips with at some point in their life. Do I continue my destructive behavior, or do I make a change that will affect all involved in a positive manner?